Lately, a lot of people have been asking me what I plan on doing with the blog. The truth is, I don’t know exactly.
I have had two amazing meetings this week. Though I can’t disclose what they’re about, I can promise it’s something big. Something I never dreamed would happen but it fucking is!
It does have to do with the blog in some ways. However, it’s more about me and my story.
The story of my life is the one I have told many times. Each time, I am greeted by shocked faces, laughter, and even (sometimes) tears. I have told it so many times that I feel like I sound like a broken record. Yesterday, I had to tell my story to someone who is going to be a major component in my upcoming project.
After I was done, he gave me a look I couldn’t read. Refusing to break eye contact and staying silent, I waited for him to say something first. Finally, after what seemed like 5 whole minutes, he opened his mouth:
“Megan, I’m disturbed. Before you think that I’m disturbed by you, let me say that I’m the opposite. I am fascinated by you. What disturbs me is that all of this happened to you at such a young age and here you are as a 20 year old, speaking like a war veteran. ”
What shocks me is that people get so disturbed/shocked over my story. I am not the only one that experienced this/is still experiencing it. I am one in 100,000 girls. This shit is still going on. Everyday, a 15 year old girl enters this industry as another model in her twenties gets thrown out. Discarded.
This 15 year old girl is sitting in the agency, nervously jiggling her leg, and waiting for her dream to come true. She is sitting in an office and being told she will book everything. She is staring at the massive wall of comp cards as an agent is boasting about the “Money Girls” and “Legends”.
The agent catches her wide eyes lingering on a supermodel.
“You like her? You’ll book even more campaigns than she will! You’ll be the next Kate Moss/Karlie Kloss/EmRata.”
The girl will balloon with happiness and believe that she, too, will become a legend. What she doesn’t know is that this quote from her agent will be said to the next tall, gangly thing that walks in.
Listen, I’m not saying that models are on the same level as girls like Malala Yousafzai. BUT, this is something that needs awareness, too.
I’m excited to be the one that girls just joining the fashion industry can maybe look up to or lean on.
The last thing I will say about the matter is this: I am not Sara Ziff. I am not crying about the fact that my “80k check that was owed to me was 2 weeks late”. I am simply showcasing the reality of modeling. Just like anything else in the world, it’s not easy BUT if you do it right, you can succeed.