It’s my biiiiiiiiirthday (eve)
I wish I was still in bed resting up for my birthday celebration tonight. My adderall isn’t kicking in this morning for some reason and it’s pissing me off. I am so exhausted right now and I can’t even think about confirming reservations. I don’t feel like hearing a whiny voice complaining about why she can’t have a certain table. THE RESTAURANT INDUSTRY IS PURE POLITICS. Get. That. Through. Your. Thick. Skulls.
I was worried about posting my “body shaming” article yesterday and I almost deleted it. Surprisingly enough, I got back a lot of positive feedback. A lot of readers agreed with me on the issue. One of my Ask.Fm comments was:
Omg thank you for your body shaming article. It’s all fat people saying how they are “REAL” women. Skinny hot people get no appraise, while when an article in buzzfeed gets posted “these plus size women made swimsuits for all sizes” ALL OF THE COMMENTS are “omg they are so beautiful!” WHEN THEU ARE OBVIOUSLY OBESE like I don’t understand peoples mindsets. THEY ARE NOT HEALTHY. are skinny women not “real women”?! HOW DO YOU FEEL ABOUT THE NEW LANE BRYANT ADS?! Those aren’t “thicker” girls. Not girls just a little bigger than VS models. THEY. ARE. OBESE.
I should’ve included “skinny shaming” in my post as well because a lot of naturally slim girls receive a ton of flack for nothing. People are much more likely to attack a skinny girl than they are to attack a thick one. The problem with this is that they paint girls who have naturally thin builds as “anorexic” or “not real women”. As someone who has suffered from an eating disorder, I take serious offense to this. That’s like calling curvier woman overweight.
There is a FINE LINE between being curvy and obese. I know a lot of girls who are bigger boned but they tone up and look great. Look at Gigi Hadid and Kendall Jenner. Gigi just has a bigger build but she works her ass off to tighten her body. Everyone comes in all shapes and sizes but there’s more criticism towards girls who don’t eat rather than girls who overeat.
Overeating and not eating enough are both eating disorders. Also, who is more likely to body shame these thin girls? Overweight women.
Another thing that I noticed at a lot of the Bulimia Anonymous groups is that a lot of the women have simply just switched their addictions to eating. It’s the same way people in recovery for alcohol addiction simply switch to being addicted to nicotine and smoke like chimneys. I don’t like going to those meetings because I feel like a lot of the other members look at me like I’m still sick whereas I’m probably healthier than they are.
I just feel like society is constantly contradicting themselves. Enough is enough! A womans body goes through a lot of changes. I was stick thin until I started having sex at the age of 17 and then my hormones started going crazy. After you lose your virginity, you are highly likely to put some weight on. My weight fluctuates like crazy but I’m very conscious of what I eat and I walk for at least 1-2 hours everyday.
Here are some photos of me from over the years. You can see my weight changes in my arms, thighs, and face.
Shit, I have to get back to work before my manager kills me!